I haven't been very well today. I think it is because I have had a really stressful weekend with one thing and another. My head has been pounding but mostly, my eyes are really sore. I took the little three to the park this morning but had to come home early coz I felt awful. The two older ones were at football with Steven and met us in the park. We went to see the horses. There are normall two horses there, one being a large chestnut and the other a small shetland grey. The kids named them scruffy and snowy. They weren't there today and in their place were 2 race horse looking ponies, all rugged up. Child number 4 was very disgruntled. Child number 1 thought she would whistle them over, and scared them half to death. They shit themselves. Poor things.
I have been asleep on the the couch this afternoon. Child number 1 (the little angel) decided she would cheer me up and tidied the whole of my bedroom without me knowing. It took her about 2 hours (it was a hell hole). I appreciate this more than anything. What a star!!!
I have got wonderful, thoughtful children. Each of them in their own way are amazing. Child number 5 (Aged 3) kept asking me how I was feeling and bringing me chocolate bars. Bless him.
Child number 2 is sleeping out tonight at my sister's house. I am at work tomorrow and he has planned ahead. If he sleeps there, he will be able to stay tomorrow while I am out. He is really crafty, but clever and wonderful.
Child number 4 has been at her boisterous best today. She has been playing on the PC on CBeebies and almost smashed the mouse when she couldn't get it to work. She is a buggar.
Child number 3 has been better behaved today. She is always a bit of a handful. She punched child number 1's friend in the eye yesterday for laughing at her. It was the first time she had been to our house as well. I wonder if she comes back? 
Ah well, I am going to finish my book. It is called Daddy's girl and is a true story about a girl who is sexually abused by her father. She eventually fights back at the age of 25 after being branded a liar for the last 15 years and onwards by her family, the police and Social Services. I have a lot of experience with Social Services and I can well believe it, but more of that another time, when I grow up a bit more! Maybe never then.
Isn't this world we live in a wonderful place.....not! It is easily understandable why people are so down on everything all of the time. It is an easy trap to fall into. I believe we are all here for a reason, to learn certain things in our lives in order to grow and develop spiritually in order to move on and help others. The harder your life is, the more times you have been here before. Maybe eventually I will write about my childhood story, or maybe not. I think subcontiously this is why I started this blog. Everything comes at the right time, and I will know when the right time is.
Anyway, I need to go to the shop for some more Bold and Comfort. (Washing machine). Be seein' ya........X
