my life

Alright? Just been to a Halloween party with child number 4. What an experience. It was at her school and the hall was decorated with balloons and the like. My 3 year old doesn't want anything to do with Halloween, coz he recons it is all a bit too scary. I don't blame him. It will give me an excuse to stay at home while husband is out 'trick or treating' with the rest of the kids.

I have had quite a productive day today. I have been reading 'Feel Good' by Dr somebody, I can't remember and it is upstairs at the moment. It is all about cognition therapy and bibliotherapy (reading in order to help yourself "self-help"). Changing your negative thought patterns in order to change your emotional state, how you feel in other words. I know all this already, but it easy to forget sometimes when everything gets on top of you all at once.

Got loads of ironing done tonight, which is good. I know it is absolutely crazy in comparison to major tragedy, but my ironing pile really pisses me off. "Oh, to go in the wardrobe and find clean, crease free clothes. What a luxury!" Look, see how small minded I have become. This stuff wouldn't normally bother me in the slightest. I even got a flat tire the other week and I just thought "so what, we will have to leave it and walk home. Not the end of the world."

I will get back to normal eventually. I think it will just take a little time. I have been self absorbed in all this football shite, and haven't seen the bigger picture for a while. I can tell when I am going down with a bit of depression, coz I start to get obsessed with the stupidest things, like dog hairs on the carpet and the dishwasher not being emptied. You know, end of the world stuff, ha ha. See, I can laugh about it now, but a couple of days ago, it could have started world war 3 in here. Psychotic loon!!!!!!!!!

I am a wonderful, kind, loving, intelligent, amazing individual who can try to change the things that can be changed, accept the things I can't change and have the wisdom to know the difference. So there!!!!!!!!!

I feel much better this morning. More positive. I walked the kids to school this morning, what a lovely morning. The birds are singing and the Autumn leaves are just beautiful.

I have decided that I can't change the world over night, not today anyway. I can only control me, and that's enough for now.

I need to phone into work coz Child number 4 has a party after school and I need to stay with her. Only found out last night. MMmmmmm, not sure what I am gonna do about it yet. Good job I have a great boss. She had 4 children quite close together, so she totally understands.